The Best Laid Plans: The Life-Plan Derailed

The life I’d planned out carefully now seemed unattainable. I couldn’t exercise, dance, act, direct. Some days I couldn’t even drive a car. Forced to be sedentary, depression crept in, combining with constant pain to make even part-time work an endurance contest. I was thankful just to push through a day and even more so to sleep through a night.

The accident threatened to completely derail the reason I’d moved to Denver, a directing internship with the National Theater Conservatory, an acting school at the Denver Center for Performing Arts. I’d planned to build on my undergraduate studies in acting, and directing, to use the internship as a stepping-stone to a graduate directing program. That life-plan brought me to Denver.

Determined to find pain relief and continue to pursue my dream, I tried every traditional approach, including, physical therapy three times a week, and  steroid injections from a physiatrist. I also pursued non-traditional and holistic therapies  chiropractic treatment, weekly massage therapy,  and acupuncture.  I wouldn’t be satisfied with just a magic bullet, I wanted a sense of normalcy.

Because of nerve compression from the neck injury, I had very little feeling in my  left hand and fingers, and frequent tingling and burning.  Often I couldn’t pick up so much as a glass of water  without dropping it. Many glasses and dishes were broken during those first few years of healing.

The medical recommendations were overwhelming. The neurologist: pain medication and a back surgery to relieve constant low back pain. Plus, a rib resection to alleviate nerve compression. TMJ specialists: jaw surgery on my right temporomandibular joint. The physiatrist injected steroids and encouraged continued physical therapy.

It’s almost comical now when I look back at the array of appliances and props. A neck brace to drive and really, just move around, a bite-like retainer for my TMJ, a lower back brace to help with the pain and special pillows and medications to sleep.

Finally, in the fall of 1995, I gave in and decided to take the path of surgery. The first: rib resection in hopes of decreasing neck pain and possibly regain the use of my  left hand and fingers.

Part Two from the article, “An Unexpected Cure: My Journey from Pain to the Transformative Power of Pilates” by Genevieve Nedder.

Help with Depression from perimenopausal symptoms

By Monica B.

Depression during perimenopause is an all too common symptom for many women. More women are speaking about it and seeking support during this transition into menopause.
A few weeks ago  I received this thoughtful and touching sharing from a dear client and long time student. She has given me her permission to share this with all of you  on my blog,  I’d like to pass it on to you. Thank you Monica.

group class

Saturday morning Fletcher Floor class @ Body Fundamentals in Tucson.

“Approximately four years ago I found myself going through a severe depression which was ultimately triggered by peri menopausal changes. During this rough period in my life I bumped into Genevieve Nedder’s mama at a social gathering and we were talking about life and its stressors. Florence Nedder chimed up and said: ‘ I want you to meet my daughter. . . . she teaches Pilates and may be able to help you.’  I was a bit skeptical that Pilates could help with my depression, but I agreed to get the Body Fundamentals literature and meet Geneviève.

To this day I am so grateful for that meeting and have found that not only has Pilates given me physical strength that I had previously been lacking, but also, my teachers at Body Fundamentals in Tucson  have given me emotional strength to help fight my depression and anxiety.”